Happy Birthday / Mama (mother)
I really miss you, when times like this rolls around it is very hard. I seem to try to shut everyone out. I stayed in bed all day Tuesday. I miss you so much. One of the reasons I miss you is because of sissy Jana's wedding. I know you would have been in it. And I know she would be very proud. You know you will be watching over Sissy and Stoney as they join as one. I know you will be Happy for them. Mama is very happy for them. Even though I have to give up my baby girl, so I will just gain a son instead. So please keep them safe on their honeymoon and their wedding, if you are there let them know, in your on special way. Ryan wants to be in the wedding , but he is wishy washy , whisper in his ear to let go and do it. I know you are a Angel and can talk him into it, Jana has done so much for him and this is one time he can repay her back. Let him know you will be right beside him and hold his hand. I am Happy for her, but then again she is my baby girl, but I will be alright. Bubba is giving her away, that is the part I don't know if I can handle . They are so close. Help her get it all together and I want to be part of it as much as possible. This is a special day for her, she has been waiting for this along time.
This has been a hard month for me, but of course I try to hide it. I went to the grave site not long ago and your buttercups looked so pretty. You would be 17 this year, it seems like yesterday. I try not to focus on it, I just have this pain in my heart that won't go away. I am ready to see you again, when it is my time to go. We are having a singing at the church on the 21st this month to raise money for Miss Mary and her daughter. Latonya is going to sing Holy Ground for me and I know you will be all around us.
Well my love, You will live in my heart forever and ever.
I love you with all my heart, Mama
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